Hi Saudi Gay guy...personally I wish for a world where one day we did not have borders, division & hatred among people & where all LGBTQI people were free, accepted & respected...but until that time, have you thought of the idea of marrying a lesbian in Saudi? Read these posts & in many places on the internet & you will see your troubles are shared by many in your country. This is sometimes a solution for some people in similar situations. I wish you well.