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Sagar (user currently living in ROMANIA) posted for gay lesbian bisexual straight readers on 16/06/2014 +5

 Birth
I was born in Pakistan at in a small village.
I was born as normal girl with normal weight physically and healthy as my mother told me. I was very healthy fit and fat by birth. Than my family gave me a very beautiful name i.e. Aisha Sohail. When i grew up than my mother sent me in a school to learn basic things.
 Primary School
Many years ago there were only two specific schools in my village. One school was for girls and one for boys. Because in my culture we have two specific schools for specific sex. Girls go in a school of girls where female teachers teach girls. Boys go in boy school where male teachers teach boy.
As I was born as girl so my mother sent me to school for girls. The name of my school was Government Girls High School (G.G.H.S.K).
I was just 3 years old at that time when I started my first initial school. I was enjoying my childhood and was learning many new things with a lot of enjoyment.
I was reaching to higher class 1, 2, 3…. with passage of time. I was very glad when I got first position in whole school with very high score in class 5. I was just 9 year old at that time. My family was very delightful with my achievement.
 First Diagnose
At age of 9 year old i just feel little bit pain in my abdominal cavity. I told to my mother about this pain. But my mother just thought that maybe I eat some non hygienic food from outside. So mother was just relaxed and thought ok no matter.
But my pain was increasing day by day than my family took me to a doctor in my village. Doctor just saw and wrote some pain killer. Tablets made me relief for time being but not permanently.
One day pain was too much family was worry. Than my family decided to take me to a specialist doctor in kharian cant (Naseeb Shahid Hospital). Doctor checked me and scan my whole body and then doctor told that something is wrong. That is I am going to be a Boy for the rest of life. It was very interesting and amazing for me and for my family.
Than doctor told that don’t worry some times it’s happen. In fact it’s a kind of disease name is Ambiguous genitalia. An ambiguous genitalia is a birth defect where the outer genitals do not have the typical appearance of either a boy or a girl.
And on other family was wonder and amazed that after 10 years there girl is going to be a Son boy. As doctor told that diagnose is positive and need a treatment for the rest of life. From their my treatment began after first met with doctors. Doctor tried to understand me a lot of things but i was just not to understand all those things so. Doctor just did what medical should do at that time.

 First operation
I don’t know enough about medical but as I remember and doctor told me things that will occur with passage of time. It was a kind of disease with me in front of doctor but for me it was just end of life for that I knew with passage of time.
Doctor told me that I need an operation and a whole treatment for this disease. As roughly I remember they told me that I have a lot of chances of boy then a girl. Because operation was compulsory for to be a normal boy.
When they scan on me they noticed that I don’t have female Brest, ovary (More detail is in medical reports).
 My second life as Boy
“I was very happy my abdominal pain gone away from me but at that time I did not knew at that time what future is bringing a bundle of pain or a bundle of bright future and that will be with me whole life.”
One side me and my family was happy that diagnose is going to be treat. And now they have a son boy in family but……. “Who know what will happen with this boy tomorrow? ”
But at last after operation doctor said that now diagnose is going to be treat and we hope that one day this will be fully treat as normal. Now at least look like a boy and then they gave me boy name. My name was change from to a girl name to a boy name.

 Facts about in my Social Community
In my social community in my social cultural community” Boy has 10 times more respect and status than girl”. But not boy become like me because this statement was inverse on me. Diseased boy like me has 20 times down status. People look on boy like me with very poor dirt eye.
I was very happy my father, mother and brother we all was very happy but what about outside my home is they also very happy….? Is any outside will also take part in my happy life….? All questions like this answer is simple but complex and that is NO WAY.
Just imagine if a girl spend her life’s 10 year as girl and live with girls community and after 10 years suddenly she become a boy than is it not shock….? Off course yes .
“People notice what happened? How happened? Why happened? How a girl become a boy? Is He really a boy?
Boy like me can we make some fun with them? Can we use them illegally ?”
A lot of bull shit thinks people think about this kind of disease if we just imagine than we can just get all answers.

 My values in my social community
As we know that my diagnose is simple to understand for doctors, for me, for my family and for educated people but not for all illiterate and shity people.
In my family some far away relative knew very well to my family. If big interesting thing happen than we cannot hide this from them . It becomes a news headline in a community .
So a bundle of questions was ready………
10 years old girl converted to a boy after 10 years of birth as normal girl…… how?
She was not a girl or she was not a boy….. what was she or he?
Is he a boy now or not……?
Is he a boy now or some other kind of sex in a community…..?
Is he a girl now or shemale…..?
That was all question that I was answering to community that who am i….? and of course I also need to proof myself.
“But nature never change” if people is dirty or may be they do not want to accept me as reality than what I can do because it’s not 2, 3 or 4 people that know , it’s a lot a people who know boy like me. So I have no plan for this to change the mind of people or their think.
 Welcome in Boy life
All above stated questions I face from my early stage I was just 11,12 years old at that time I was not very old. People tease on me with a lot dirty threats I just amile and think that people are crazy why they ask such stupid questions.
But with passage of time I started to accept my reality and identity and I felt so sorrow on that and people`s thinks.
Socially and as well as politically community and people started to criticize, disparage and disapprove of to me in many ways. Because naturally when we become adult then we can see the different between good and bad. In childhood we cannot differentiate between right and wrong. When we grow up and going for to be adult then we can see our real value in a society or a community but unlucky everything was inverse on myself.
I cannot write my whole past life days one by one but in short I can just express my happenings feelings.
To go in school that was very big and complex challenged for me. every student in my school and every body in school tease on myself and talk on me very badly in fact I was become a psycho. Everybody gave me different dirty names and every day they call me from a new name.
Psychologically I was accepting the reality and asked the question to myself is it true what they said? Then I went every time to my doctor that what new issue I am facing. Because I knew that my doctor know everything about me he is trying to me to make me a normal .

But in fact doctor was also worried about my issues he just gave a strong hope that my boy be happy everything will be ok. But what else he can answers on my issue of course nothing else.
Doctor knew that he can just treat my diagnose my problem but doctor cannot change the minds of society the minds of community or thoughts of community or society that doctor cannot change.
Extra curricular
In extracurricular activities (Games cricket, cricket, football etc) some time I also wanted to play games cricket, football but question is who mean who is going to play? Of course I am but still my reality and identity is waiting to dirty my nature.
People eye just that I have different kind of sex not male not female. So people was just used to say only shit things that play other games with other kind of sex as this reply I heard always. Infact they give me a option that play other type of game with other kind of sex.
But how long I will be alone my mind reply just maybe forever? Will I be alone forever? I fear from people talk on myself in dirty manners.
People mind nobody can change it was a kind trend or mind or view of society I don’t know what was that.
Participations in ceremonies
Participations in ceremonies on different occasions was a straight attack on my dreams. Some I wanted to go on a ceremony to enjoy the happiness of other to participate in others time but when I saw on cultural then I just think that shit will be come on my face. Because I cannot hide my face not hide my identity these things just make me down to think.
My Personal life
If you have your values in life and have a real personality that you can enjoy the real life funs but in my case I have not enough dirty words that what was my personality from which society knows me.
If we see on all aspects than I also have spent my childhood. Although I have spent my childhood as a girl. In reality my personal life was completely in hell.
First friends were girls so they of course knew me by my name and data. And after sex change the girls they just think on me that I am middle sex man. So they just ignore me at some point they want to me that I should live their society.
Play with dolls in childhood was great fun but suddenly everything changed and I just change myself to fit myself in society but unlucky no chance .
Sometimes people just talk on me that why I have clothes of boys? Why I am hiding my really personality in the clothes of boy? And I reply them that because I am a boy and they just make a fun and give a name to me tha I am a half man like half boy half girl.
 My identity and history was my pain
My identity and my past was big pain in myself. And this pain even I cannot express to any other. When ever I talked to any girl from my childhood she just make fun of me and girl think that she should not even talk to boy like me.
Whenever I went to an educational institutions in homeland so problem was papers it was stated on papers sex change so first impression stated on me was that a different kind of sex is going to be study.
Date of birth was stated on every paper and from this everybody knows my history and my past and stand like a big challenge for me. So they just ignore to me existence in community.
Life was going on and day was coming and going things were happening. But my future dreams was just dream not going to be real.
Many time I just felt so down at home I was just use to watch Tv, internet but whenever I saw on media a lot reports on prostitutes, she male attack ,male prostitutes homosexual etc so I just feared from society that although I have some kind of disease with me but I just fear to go outside.
Homosexual, she male, male prostitutes that all exists in society. Nobody can change others minds,thoughts and trends. She male group also exists in society who just try to find the people like them. They just search people like them and try to force and encourage them that live life like them. I fear from all these when I see on media.
Reality that i faced

In simple words if i express about reality and truth that i faced in my life. then i can easily say that i face two different realities of a social society in two different culture.

One reality was a group of homogenous people whose main aim was just to encourage and force me and just to see me with an eye that to join the bad society of protitues for male.
In any way they were not going to leave me on my on life at the way that i want i should have my on self respect.so my heart was not going in any way to accept the shit of homogeneous group.

Second reality was my parents who can just clearly feel my heart pain. Every parents wish that their children become a good and successful citizen. Every parents want their children bright future. same nature my parents had.

So parents can understood me in better way that their son has his on future aims. Their son also want to make his birght future insted of to accept a name of prostitution in society.

So parents just said to me that " Son if you really want to make your dreams true in your own way than just go out far away from this community and society". Forget this society,culture,community and your past and think about your bright way.

" just imagin if one wrong thing happened one day than at next day you cannot fix that thing to fix the wrong one life always goes on".

Society has known you and next you can not change them. So i just decieded to go out from their and i was happy that my future is going to bright and oneday i will get off rid from this shity society. So i was very good in computer field i just decieded to be in field in future in computer.


Life's ups and downs that i cannot express in words some beautiful and great time that i would like to express.

In my point of view My past 10 years life was equal to 100 years of pain in life but my 3 years of life in europe was equal to 30 years of sucessful life with a specific self respect in my own views.

" Nobody tease on me that hej boy wear your on clothes of girl or play with your own kind of sex."
Although at some point i felt down and i was miss out from collage because problem was at some point i got some stress and some depression due to my disease and i did not want to tell in my collage that i have some problem in my life.

But on other hand i was really happy with my life i got the actual rights of a human like i treated human. I got job here was my first independent life. I proved my self as a self man with my own respect without any shity and bad society.

I took part in activties in collage in society i played a lot football. i meet with girls chit chat and boys and also participate in their life activties like a human.

In simple words i took my first independent breath with my rights as a human in Denmark with a self respect.

At Last

I treid my best to express my history as much i have skills in english. But some things and words like F i dont want to write here for a respect as i now have here.

But i hope that my words will be not take in bad manners. At last i will just say that i still has problem disease although i have tried love with a girl in fact at some point i admit that i need to be treat for my normal life. So we can understand the point of view that what i girl want i cannot give to her ( refer to mediacl Reports) . I believe that every disease can be treat and oneday my disease will alos be treat and i will spend my normal life with my own right as to be a Human.

Thanks Have a nice day.
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azad (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 22/12/2013 +5
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Khalid (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 14/12/2013 +20
i am a gay man and i am living in Lahore here in pakistan have some misunderstanding between gay and trans we mix it but we are different and have different life style, Be a gay person our life is under shadow of fear of shame and harassment by Society , Police and families,

I want request all of you with this form please dnt mix us with trans and homo sex workers we are different we seeking our life with our life style

Yes pakistan is heaven for homo sex workers and trans if they say it is heaven for proper gays its totally wrong.
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Aileen (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian readers on 10/12/2013 tagged with sexual orientation, religion +9
SALAM EVERY ONE.. i m girl. i m intrested in girls. i blong to a religious family who will not accept my sexuality.... they presurize me to get marry with man,, it is imposible for me because in not intrested in boys.and i love a girl she loves me too.we are happy and spend whole life with each other. and i cant ruin a life of boy.. so plzzz help me .. if any gay has same problem so tell me we can help each other.. its urgent.i m so mch worried. plzzz mail me at faimakhan535@hotmail.com
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Arshad (user currently living in AUSTRIA) posted for gay readers on 24/11/2013 tagged with teaching lgbt rights in schools, sexual orientation +4
Real happening at 13years of age I joined boarding school in city of Sind at four hours train and bus distance from home. Knew sex as a bad thing and getting fucked was extremely bad. I used to get some erection but had not even masturbated. This was early sixties, when no computers, porn films etc. Homosexuality was known . I joined three other boys in same room, soon heard that senior boys go after junior attractive boys during night fuck them by hook or crook and then that victim is blackmailed and hence has no option but to obey them because the fucker in that society is seen as strong man and the victim gandoo, meaning one who present his ass.We four were afraid of these big boys so always locked our room before sleep. I was bit blackish with attractive features, I realised that some big boys like me and wanted me to become their friend, they even used to offer me presents, this scared me more.

night I felt some one hand on my face and I managed to release myself and shouted,my next roomate was also shouting , they ran away, other two also got up, switched light on, door was wide open, who opened, no one new ( some one must have opened). Only me and the one next to my bed (Rehana) were shivering. We joined our beds and decided to sleep together due to fear of these big boys. Rehana was perhaps a year older, we'll build ,very fair boy. He was son of a land lord , lived only an hour bus ride distance. We never talked about sexing but were afraid of getting faked. At a small noise we would cling each other, my penise started to rise and so was his , soon each other penise and then would make both penises rub and enjoy, I use to measure both erected rods by holding in hand and bringing against, the truth was that Rehans was not only bigger but thicker than mine. Now every night mew use to get nacked and sleep . He was desperate to insert his thic long rod into my small ass and I wanted to fuck him first, we were unable because did not want to make noise because of other two roomates.
During day we would agree that who so ever win toss , he will fuck first but he always won toss (he cheated)and after getting naked and making sure our roommates are asleep , he would turn my back to him, apply some cream on my ass and as prepare to place his lovely rod on my asshole I would turn my face to him and say no first me because your Lund is too big and thick (mota) , Ok but as I place my lovey thin but erect rod on his ass, he would jump and say no, we would pass night like this, one day he said tonight we will try 69, what is it ? He explained me, so far we had not kissed each other, that night he first licked and sucked my rod and slowly did his, this night we both released juices got bit afraid but had some knowledge, this led us to mouth to mouth kissing.
We had not seen each other naked in light until one month holidays arrived, the hostel became empty, we were almost alone waiting for Rehans father who was to pick me and I was to spend few days at his village as he promised me not only to let me fuck him alone but we both will have another boy . It Sunday afternoon, no one in hostel, his father was to come Monday morning , we were having grapes, fan giving cool air , doors and windows closed due to hot weather, both without shirts and in pyjamas, first time I saw his reddish white body and he looked at me, instantly he brought grape to my lips and I to his mouth , his other hand went to my half erect penise and mine to his huge bulge and we locked into kiss , he murmured " please. I beg let us do it now" and he removed my pyjama and then his, Oh my god what a beautiful lady like body ( in Pakistan White colour is sign of beauty) and what a shapely ass, he put his hand around my ass pulled me towards him and said Arshad You are fantastic , I separated my self , looked his big hard rod , brought both rods together , no doubt his was longer thicker and whiter than my blackish one, he felt proud and I felt afraid of his going into my little ass, because even his finger with cream use to cause bit pain where as he used to enjoy my finger into his ass, his every thing was bigger, finger, ass hole, even mouth and tounge . Now we lied on bed totally naked , played, a bit licking rods then he turned me and started kissing my ass, slowly working with tounge. Into and around ass hole, first time I experienced this excellent feeling and first time I started moaning and say , yes Rehana do it , push in , fuck me , after he turned and said now you do it, so I tried to do and he enjoyed but I turned my as sot him begging please doit again, he said ok then I will insert my rod first , I agreed because for that lust I would have agreed to any thing. No he put my ass fully up , spread my legs , and started to work with tounge, what a lust, even today I have not forgotten , as he he was licking and fucking with tounge ! My eyes closed and I was up in heaven when he sat in between my legs and placed his rod on my ass hole, I shouted no , he said you promised, I said ok but please slowly, and pullout if pain ful, Ok, please don't squeeze , just relax , I will do same with tounge, only let me insert a bit , and just we heard a big shout , What is this, we jumped out , saw my cousin infront of us , we garbed our shirt pyjama and tried to hide our selves. Before we speak, he went back, bolted the door and said since how long have you been doing this, we only today, he again said , tell me truth have you been ever fucked any body or got fucked , we said no, he took our clothes , made us sit down naked and said then you must first get training. Shall I teach you. We remained quite. He was more looking at Rehan. He took of hi clothes and said to Rehana put your hands on knees , let teach you first and then Arshad, Rehana obeyed him , he asked me to touch. His rod which was already hard enough, ang longer than Rehans ( he is my distant cousin, married and two sons, he must be 29 year ) as I watched, he took some saliva from his mouth and rubbed on Rehans ass, inserted finger , pulled out placed his rod on ass hole and with one hand hold Rehans rod , started to massage, saying love you have nice Rod , Arshad would like , even if you like you can fuck me after I teach, Rehan seemed relaxed as he was replying you see Arshad your cousin is saying, as they were taking, cousin gave a one big push , Rehana just sighed aha, cousin said no worry my boy now enjoy, the hurdle is gone, you would always love to be fucked, he went on pumping with variable speeds until he garbed Rehang back and filled his ass with his , pulled out cleaned himself with my shirt, Rehana ass was leaking his white stuff, which cousin helped clean him. He said let us go to eat a and come back and you both can enjoy , Now we were friendly with cousin, after he took us for nice treat and also gave some money , me and Rehana asked cousin if he could stay with us for night as Rehana dad was to come in the morning , I think cousin could not wish more, so he said ok if you insist I will. On our way back he bought two bottles of different oil, one he said is oil from wild lizard and other is nice lubricant, he also bought some drinks and food. Fro there he took us to cinema which was nowhere near today's Normal porno but for those days was hot enough, English film. By 8 o'clock were back in our room , there were only 3-4 boys and a watch man , whom we told he is my elder brother has come to take me home and will stay with us, he gave him some money to keep him happy. Room door and windows closed light on, food and drinks opened. He removed his clothes saying , now we are close friends so why shy, do you mind, we said no, ok then you should also become free and started to remove my shirt , we became naked, he began explain body parts , about women breasts, pussy, , have you ever sucked breasts and licked pussy , we said but breasts for baby milk and pussy is dirty to lick, but then I realised we have licked asses, he put his fingers on Rans tits saying your tits are 13 year old girls tits and started to roll , do u like , yes Rehan said , then he rolled over my tits after making finger wet with saliva, It was really lovely, he was telling his sex experiences with various girls, boys and wife, his ongoing affairs, when we asked about his first time sex, he said he was fourteen and used to watch a newly married relatives , his wife saw him once and then when her husband went to his parents for few days and arranged him to stay with her until he returns, she first night asked him do you like what husband wife do, he said yes, she said would you like to be my husband until he he come bak, it started and she made me expert, she also introduced other girls and married and even now we sex . His erotic talk made our rods hard like any thing his rod was shining as he has been oiling with oil and wethreehavebeen massaging randomly all rods , occasionally kissing, and sex playing on his guidance,
Now Rehana wished to fuck me, I objected but cousin said not to worry, we all going to fuck each other. Now I put my hands on knees, cousin opened ass lips,Rehana put his tounge , pull lips apart, open ass , so I can push tounge and fuck his virgin ass, as cousin pulled and I pushed to wide open ass , the tong was rolling inside taking me climax, withdrew his tounge and cousins put lot of oil ang started working oil inside hole with finger and Rehana was slowly masturbating my hard rod, cousin was murmuring dirty sex whic made me erotically relax , noticed when Rehan pushed his thick tool in , I was in pain but great cousin was licking my tits and massaging my erect rod with oily handstand Rehan was pumping ass rythematically, ( I wish I get that fuck now), ah! Rehana just released his juices and pulled his dead pennies out but my penisewas up and shouted please continue don't go away, just that moment I felt a continuity, No it is not Rehana the pumping is so nice and rod is longer, is that you cousin, yes my boy, I can't see you crying, I saw Rehan standing infront of me with his tool hanging down, What a fuck, my fist, but never was again. I later on wondered , I was running away from fuck, sr, boys were so eager to fuck me and now cousin got it so easily and made it memorable. Whole night we fucked , when tired food, drinks, his erotic stories and exciting our sex buds made us ready , night of threesome,, Cousin guided us how we should fuck, he said he had three some with two female, boy and female and this with two virgin boys was a wish come true. While one of us fucking him, he sucked others rod, or ass, it was almost every position. He left early morning, among many his advises Followed one the most " he said remember, every male female loves sex irrespective of age , go for it . Never let go oppurtunity and chance, but to run and force. Just think how I worked on you both,". I went to Rehans village with his dad, they looked after very well. Stayed for one week during from first night sex matters with Rehan and his boy servant were no issue, but following cousin advice I made Rehans mother fuck me and his young sister engage in kissing etc when Rehana had to go to town for. One night with dad, later fucked cousin's wife and son , aunties, cousins , both male and female , sister in law her friends etc can narrate if there is chance, good bye this true story but not names. Exalt: Suzyran@hotmail.co.uk

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asad (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 08/11/2013 tagged with gender identity, sexual orientation +30
I want to share my story here. I am 23 now. Since my childhood, I have been comparing myself with girls. I have been considering myself a girl. I always walked like girls, talked like girls. My family has been abusing me verbally since I was a three years old kid. They insulted me like anything. I was even sexually abused when I was a child. At school, lots of boys, even teachers harassed me and made fun of me. Lots of so called straight boys have been making sexual advancements on me since I was a child. I say thanks to GOD that I have never ever been raped. God has always protected me. I belong to a poor family. Luckily I was very good at studies and got lots of scholarships. So as my family got free of my responsibility, their mouth shut automatically. Now I am a student at LUMS. Even at LUMS lots of people have been making fun of me or trying to force me into sex. I have been very ashamed of myself since my childhood. I never knew what I was, always confused. Recently an Instructor at LUMS told me that it was not my fault. It was from God. I never needed to be ashamed of it. It was my identity, my reality. And the moment he told me that it was not my fault, I felt like I'm free. I'm free. I'm free. All my questions have been answered. I got happy like anything. You can't even imagine my life has changed. I feel free, confident, strong enough to shut world's mouth. I am happy like anything. The instructor has changed my life. I am happy, I am happy, I am happy. I am not ashamed of my self. I am an effeminate GAY. I am an effeminate GAY. I wanna tell it to every one, every one in this world. I am proud of myself. I am very happy with what I am and I don't want to change it. I say thanks to GOD that he has made me like this. I love GOD. Even if God puts two options to me know: 1. Be a straight boy 2. Be an effeminate gay. I would choose to be an effeminate gay. I would love to be an effeminate gay. I am proud of myself. I have recently discovered myself. Now I know what I am and I am strong enough to fight the whole world. Thanks God for making me what I am.
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Virgo (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers in response to this story on 13/10/2013 tagged with religion +20
Well My Story is a same like other fellas ! A gay guy who is living in a closet and seeking Freedom which far away somewhere i don't know where ! What will you do when your parents pressurize you to get married to their choice of Girl ?
It is now 6th year and the pressure is on ! i would like to attempt suicide rather then ruin other straight Girl's life !!

Can anyone Help me ? Seriously please ?
Is Asylum the way i can go for ?
or what to do ?
Have any of you ever had this ? what you did ?
Please share Please !!!
asiastock2006@yahoo.com !! Thank you
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Azra Iqbal (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 06/10/2013 +5
I am gay Please Help me
Azra Iqbal
Mob: 92-333-2638684
Mob: 92-312-3018005
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aryan khan (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers in response to this story on 11/09/2013 +4
I am 17 and i feel my tendency towards boys also. very much confused what to do
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lgbt Pakistan (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual intersex straight readers in response to this story on 28/08/2013

wanted LGBT activist , Inserted Person contact : lgbt.pk@gmail.com
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(user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual intersex straight readers on 28/08/2013 +4

There is introduction in the world that pakistan is pure islamic country, few days ago american embassy manage a program GLBT rights, in this us embassy programe reactoin whole over the pakistan public contest the protest on the roads, in f...ront of us embassy etc, The protestor were saying that its against the preaches of islam , its against our culture, we reject this amecican culture etc, stop these actvities in holy pakistan etc. being a pakistani ,

i am saying that near about 40 percent public of pakistan is gay , lesbian , homosexual, hetrosexual , bisexual , transgender etc, In punjab come to Deraghazi khan , Taunsa sharif , MUZAFAR GARH , MULTAN , DERA ISMAIL KHAN , MIAN WALI , BHAKAR , JHANG , LAHORE , RAJAN PUR ETC IN balochistan RAKHNI , BARKHAN , LORA LAI, TRIBAL AREA ETC IN SINDH , WHOLE ENTERIER SINDH , SKHAR , LARKANA , KANDHKOT , KARACHI ETC IN KPK , PESHAWER AND OTHER DIFRENT CITIES OF KPK ,

come and see what is hapning, IN these cities i have seen that people are homasexual , bisexual , and transgendr

1# There are many people who have boyfriends , to whom they give motor cycle , clothes , shoes and money to walk and spend the time for their hapiness, people are in competion with each other that whose boyfriend is beautiful, they showes their boyfriend in public place , hotles, cultural shows and other programe ,

2# our local poet and singers are very famous due to sing the poetry relted with same sex,

3# people enjoy when a singer will sing about same sex poetry , there will be much crowed of people in these function,

4# drivers of bus , truck , van , and public transport have a boy who is known as cleaner , parhaps the boy is his boyfriend and he use him for his homosexuality nature,

5# There is fashion to have a beautiful boyfriend,

6# If you will visit at night time at bus stand , railway station , and parks , there wil be many people searching the boys for sexual relation,

7# you can emagine through internt servay that the websight containning sex meterial are opend in PAKISTAN from whole the world , PAKISTAN is no# 1 to open the sex meterial websight.

8# there are many cases daily that raped a boy in etc city,

9# IN these cities many young boys who wear ladies clothes and searching a man for fucking , they went in cultural program and dance , people of pakistan , muslims be happy and shower money at them, you can see them on road side railway station , bus stand searching for homosexual.

10# IS this not hapening in pakistan ? Now turning point when a case will hapen of same sexuality etc the whole comunity will stand and wil protest against the issu , they will kill the issuing person, burn his house etc in protest or killing or burning his house the persons will be in front , will leading the protest , who last night were searching a boy , same sex for fucking or sexual relation.

They say that this is against the preaching of islam , against our culture , American embassy manage a programe against islam against our culture its american culture.

They are blind that what is hapening in our cities , they dont know the culture of their borned cities , or only against america , they have goggles at their face such goggle that mention them that last night they have sex with boy and today he have sex with boy, last night they have not act against islam, today he has act against preaches of islam, so he shold be burned or killed. they will burn or kill him who have sex last night with a boy.

so its my observation as being a pakistani , being a part of this comunity that

11# There is nobody muslim in pakistan and everybody is a big muslim in pakistan

I do not know writing after this i will be alive or dead , through religiuos extrimists ( our comunity) , or or..................,i will prove it and much more, if i will secure i will provide my data

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abc (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual intersex straight readers in response to this story on 26/08/2013 tagged with illegality of male to male relationships +9
i am a gay and i think pakistni govt should make a law for gay, lesbian marriage
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Sultan (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender intersex straight readers in response to this story on 15/08/2013
i am working on Sexual health of youth including gay, lesbian , trans gender etc, please contact me . i am interested to outreach these groups. you can contact me at 0344 5053818 islamabad
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REGGIE (user currently living in UNITED KINGDOM) posted for gay readers on 02/08/2013 +0
i would like fall in love with pakistani very much but i know they are very strcit law but i bit disappointed really why some old man from pakistani who work for taxi he is very nice person i do like him very much really so i wish have pakistani older gay i loved so i can look after him very much so never mind bit sad really,
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March (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay bisexual readers on 05/07/2013 tagged with human rights, religion, illegality of male to male relationships +25
Hello readers.
Well my name is March (as I don't want to expose it here). The story goes like this that I'm a good looking young guy. Who is really creative and innovative by thoughts. Who really wants to go abroad and prove himself in any field of life. But unfortunately life has been too tough on me. I'd been in lahore for like 8 months and I through a gay networking website, met ample people and dated them. Yet I finally concluded after my experiences that lahore has completely transformed into an HUB OF GAYS. Guys have now started to cross dress and they call each other BAJI (SISTER). I mean what the hell is going on! Well if this is a bitter truth then why we are not ready to accept it? It must be accepted by hook or by crook. Now the problem is that my family got to know by some means that I'm gay too. But I'm not completely gay I'm a bisexual. Im in a relationship with a female. But I enjoy being with guys too. My family wants me to quit all this creep. But I want to quit my family. But as a student I'm not financially sound to be on my own. I've completed my graduation, but I guess there are no much jobs unless you have masters in some program. I feel myself so lonely. I want to quit everything and want to fly abroad. I want someone to help me...
Somebody who can save me... :(
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fahad (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 12/06/2013 +15
i m 27 years old gay from Pakistan..i belong to a Muslim family and gay marriages and relations are illegal and not accepted here..i can not tell my family about my sexual orientation and they will force me to marry a girl one day...i don't want to ruin a girl's life because i m gay and i can't give love to a girl or my wife which she deserves....if anyone has solution of my problem..tell me please....add me on facebook www.facebook.com/fahadalihere
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ali posted for gay readers in response to this story on 10/06/2013 +5
I m ali from Islamabad but now i live in America. i m a gay and i like homosexuality.
I m very thankful to US Govt and US ambassador and paticularly my best friend farooq ahmed guide me for US shelter visa.Now share our homosexual friend for how you can get US shelter visa,You 1St of all create homosexual club and register internationally homosexual organization then apply (US international homosexual program).
If any question for homosexual shelter guidance so E-MAIL to: skystar30@yahoo.com
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Ali (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual intersex readers in response to this story on 06/06/2013 +9
Where are u from ?
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shakil (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay bisexual readers on 30/05/2013 +25
Hi, I am Shakil, 27 years old, but i still could not shared with what i am what i want because i belong to muslim family and i know i am Muslim, belong to country where its not allowed to man can Love man.. But here in Pakistan gays are just used for sex needs..

But i feel i don't know why i do love man. i want to live my life i have right to live because i feel what i want.
how i am writhing nobody knows so why i follow them.???
i want to break all the rule just i need a life partner.

I love and like guys who are elder than me, who like old things, old music, old but good ideas. I don't believe in figure and dicks or such type of things, i just like who loves me and cares me whoever is he.

if you have seen Syed's and Chris (Gay) Love Story same like that i need boyfriend or Lover, well he is not financially well but i will compromise and try to fulfill my and his needs.
i have downloaded Movie Beautiful Thing which is gay movie but still i could not have watched, well its story is about two boys who are disappointed from their lives but when they meet together they change their lives....
so i am waiting for an angel who comes and change my life forever.

I am Social Worker, working with Non Governmental Organization NGO, i love to work for Child Protection so i am working with Child Protection NGO as Project Coordinator. WE have established two Functional Literacy and Life Skills Centers for Child Labor where 200 hundred workers 07 to 13 years old are being facilitated... even i am sick of our Chairman but still for children i work.. before working here i had worked with International Rescue Committee IRC as Protection Officer since 08 December 2010 to 31 December 2011, and my previous experience is working with Save the Children as Community Mobilizer..

If you will understand this Poem you will realized how i am suffering and what i feel...

If My Suffering Found a Tongue

My suffering is a song unsung
My soul a speck without a seal

If my surfing found a tongue
My name and sign it would reveal

If of my soul I found the sign
I would perceive the world’s design

If this secret were in my reach
My silence would acquire speech

Sway over all created things
And the empire of both worlds be mine
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Amar (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 05/05/2013 tagged with armed forces +10

i am Amar, i am 23 years old i am a student fro Lahore (Pakistan) i found my sexual orientation is Gay.
when my family knows about my personality they refuse to accept me longer. now a days i am sick. i have no idea where i discuss my issues my life. In Pakistan i not found a proper setup where i can go and discuss my issues and get the solvency of that.
I see lot of the buddies they out from their houses due to their Gay sexuality. when families drop the child from the family he work a gay / Shemale / male sex worker but can,t run their study set up. i want to complete my study. also want to bees a normal life with my boyfriend. but in my own country i cannot do this. I need the help of international organization they work for LGBT rights. such organization help out me that s why i can complete my study. i also want to make a setup with the help of LGBT rights organization for those gay guys they want to get study but can,t do that by financial crises.
Please help me and lead to me successful direction.
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an effiminate (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 10/04/2013 tagged with at the work place, lgbt families +10
where ours orthodox norms crushing us, ours cruel stereotypes suffocating us since centuries the LGBT compaign is a hope for the people like me to breath at will but on it positive senses......like me i am an mphil qualified person . From a prestigious university of islamabad city with thirty years of age i do not have any job because i looks gay.... Evn i am not....and evn if i am so should i not have right to earn my livelyhood?
We need change we need help....we need this revolution.
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(user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual intersex straight readers in response to this story on 08/01/2013 +24
to all LGBT friends plz contact me as i will help you out.

seema khan
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Lash posted for gay readers in response to this story on 05/11/2012 +30
I am a gay boy from Pakistan... Here i am really very tensed because i can't live my life with my own lifestyle... Pakistani society is strict society for gays... I wanna get rid of all these issues which are making hurdles in my own gay life... Kindly, guide me to leave this society.... I am an educated and intelligent guy wanna some sort of help to leave Pakistan and to have job in the other countries, where gays can live free and have the right for same sex marriage....
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shah (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual readers on 16/07/2012 +30
hi..how are you.iam a gay from pakistan age 22..at the age of 16 i know that iam a gay.i did,nt tell anyone about that iam gay.because it very hard in pakistan that people accept any one as gay.and could case life prision or death if any body know about you .and its hard to find any relationship.i live as single and its too hard for me live in pakistan as gay.please any one give me response hos i managed my self as gay. my email idd is handsum_boy20@yahoo.com
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Qamar (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 12/06/2012 +20
I am a gay since I was 10. One of my cousion started homo with me. Latter I find myself. And now I can not live without being gay. Here in Pakistan soem people are eage rto kill me because of being a gay. I dont know what to do. Every job i started was finished due to thsi problem. Let see what happens next.
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Andre (user currently living in NIGERIA) posted for gay lesbian readers in response to this story on 27/03/2012 +15
am Andre from nigeria west africa i am new to this gay thing and i ve not done it before so i need you to teach me and show me ..my email is andrewunabor@yahoo.com..+2348094689531 is my cell phone number call me if you wish..you can have sex to me so i don't know what is called if am a gay or bissexual or lesbian
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(user currently living in UNITED KINGDOM) posted for gay lesbian readers on 25/03/2012 tagged with marriage / civil unions +15
A good friend of mine has just returned to PK from the UK to a family desperate to get him married off howEVER he's gay of course.
Does anyone know of any way to reach (preferably well-educated) lesbians in PK who might be interested in a marriage of 'convenience' ??
James - UK
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first night (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 23/03/2012 +28
i,m had a friend he was very pretty and very sexy. he would never talk and nor lifts anyone except me. one day we r go for outing on the murree hills very cold and beutiful place in pakistan.
when we r go there snow falling is begin. i ask him for delay our trip and go in a hotel for night sleep. when we get an room tehre was only one bed for sleep. i,m ask him that u sleep on bed and i"ll on the floor he accept my sugestion.
so i,m laying down on floor and he was on bed.
at nights half passed i feel he was not sleep like me even he was on the bed with worm blanket.
then i hear something.
he ask me slowly asif r u awaking? he ask me two times.
then i see to them smile and say"no".
he asks" why"?
i says there is very cold i feel on the floor.
he think a while and ask"realy ?"
yes it is.

he smiles and say come on the bed with me.
r u kidding me at 1am?
no i,m serious!
so then i,m walk and put my body on the worm bed. he put his blanket on me. thank u i say.
its ok.
i,m ask him why not u sleep even u r on the worm bed.

he smiles and put his hand on my thaghies.
i need u r worm body?
i ask him this is not right we r good friends?
he smiles and says everything is possible in friendship.
he put his hand on my cock.
ohhhh it was unforgetable experience for me.
then i,m take him with all night kissing and fucking.
that was my first experience now he was in canada.
but i,m trying to forget that night but it is impossible.
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Being a homosexual in Pakistan means being a criminal, a person who is in complete violation of laws and culture. Gay people get killed just by being gay, our friends abandon us, families disown us, all because we choose to like a certain person. People wouldn't even talk about this topic. This is how bad we are considered in our own country. I wish i could have a way to change this. I wish i could give people hope and freedom. I wish i could save people from hiding their identities and their love for someone. The situation in Pakistan is especially sad because of the religious extremism. Islam is a beautiful religion and people are corrupting it by saying it forbids homosexuality. There is no such thing like that and i want people to know. We need a change and its time we started working on it.
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Naseer Ahmed Khan (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 21/11/2011 tagged with laws and leadership , religion, illegality of male to male relationships +8
...Hi My name is Naseer Ahmed Khan...I am gay and want a same sex marriage...but very unfortunately here in my country...its never allowed and its considered like a huge sin...If i will take any step in front of all..I may be killed by relatives or religious people....somebody please give me an advice...I shall be very thankful to you for this act of kindness..

Best Regards,
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Abbasi (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 19/10/2011 +15
I am From Pakistan and and i am gay.i had sex with guys at my young age but i was not sure i am gay or not then i got engaged to a girl i thought it will be OK by the time after some years that i got to know my self that i am gay was married to a girl because of family pressure now i am a married man but i have no interest in my wife i tried lot to be like other straight guys but it cant help me . i am very worried about my self and my wife some time i feel that i destroyed her life i can not leave him because of my family i don't know what to do . some time i think i should be commit suicide .:( there are many depressing stories i Pakistan
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make history (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay lesbian transgender bisexual intersex straight readers on 27/09/2011 +10
hello , i am bisexual from pakistan , i want to work for LGBT rights in pakistan , plz support
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(user currently living in AUSTRALIA) posted for gay readers on 20/03/2011 +20
I am not sure from where to start.........i was a Yong kid when i was molested by my adult male cousins and neighbors and i was unable to tell any one of my family.....but at the end had attraction towards men..
i grew up went to higher school...boys from senior classes and molested me.....
Came to know about my sexuality in start of my graduation.. this was the time i felt myself cursed and guilty....
i always heard from my friends that gay guys are the most disgusting creature in this universe and i was not able to tell about myself ever....this was killing me every second... then i heard its completely forbidden in Islam and this made my situation worst.........
I know i am honest and can't pretend....lie to others and pretending some thing "Which i am NOT" was like agony i was IN....
i spent in this situation 10years of my life, dieing every min..... tried to commit suicide being sick of guilty, shame, embarrassment and FEAR....
infact couldn't hide and caught by my friends and family.....my elder sister hated me and accused me like any thing....my younger brother has been abusing me in front of his friends and my friends like SLUT< GANDO, MAN's BITCH............i stopped going out and seeing people in family and friends, lockup myself in my room for months.......
Went to England and had time of my life.......but my parents forced me to get married, i tired my hard but couldn't resist, because i love my parents....i decided never to come back...but younger brother was bully to my parents like he was always to me.....i decided to come back to Pakistan.....sacrificed myself to protect my parents from HIM, got my wife...no escape........
New era of pain starts....... i was back from England..got courage to express my real soul......got notorious and name of filthy shit because i was gay.... my brilliant academic career, hardwork, honesty, kindness, intelligence was nothing to them... i started feeling alienated and made myself alone...
at home wife made my life hell along with my guilt of being not honest to her, being pretentious was killing me every moment....my family, parents, friends (even they knew that i was gay, ad i can't help it), relatives declared me a cruel, mean and selfless person and sentenced me punishment of being alone........ tried to commit suicide again (survived).....i always wish i could be straight and living a happy life like all others with wives and kids.... i was completely shattered.....
Then a friend came to my life.... a fresh breeze..........he gave me courage to live and support in all my bad times......and suggest me to move out of this country.
Got opportunity to come to Australia for few months....and here i am having MY LIFE...but after few months when it will finish......don't know what would happen....
I know i am from Pakistan......but i don't belong to that country and people in there...i have got very good job, a big house from my father there but ......I just love my parents and youngest sisters......along with 2 friends....they are only assets i have got now......
(i HAVE HIDED MY IDENTITY HERE, BECAUSE FEAR OF BEING DISGRACED AND HUMILIATED IS STILL THERE) any decent person can contact me at fita.zair@yahoo.com
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awais (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay transgender bisexual readers on 15/09/2010 +15
i am awais 21 years old from lahore,i wanna have a gay friend but due to moral restictions i can,t expose myself so help me to find a loving friend in lahore,,,my Email ID is awais.shah59@yahoo.com
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Mani Shah (user currently living in PAKISTAN) posted for gay readers on 25/03/2010 tagged with leadership, lgbti movement (community organizing +52
I am a homosexual .I and two of my friends have done a Gay Parade in Karachi,Pakistan, after that we have also given an interview to BBC regarding Gay rights in Pakistan, we have actively involved in activities and protests against the discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation but since the interview has been released on the BBC website we have been threatened by some agencies and extremists and our lives are at stake. we have also contacted the Human Rights Commission of Pakistan but they promptly refused to be any part of it. My question is, is there anyway your organization can help us or guide us in dealing this situation, kindly reply me as soon as possible we are in desperate need of help?

Mani Shah

The link to the video BBC has released is given below:


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